Sunday, August 3, 2008

My overwhelming emotions

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We meet with the specialist and had a sequential screen done. It only tells us the risk of the baby having Down syndrome or trisomy 18. The blood work will be back on Friday. The ultrasound seemed very positive. The doctor said ultrasound measurement looked very normal. It seemed to go well. I am feeling a little less anxious- not 100%. Here are some new pics from the appt.

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I have so many times sat down to blog and then just became overwhelmed. Here is what is troubling me so much. I am torn with various emotions - but some are stronger than others - guilty and scared.I feel guilty because I was so excited when we found out about all of the other pregnancies; I am not yet excited. I am just scared and worried. If I could be guaranteed that baby would be 100% healthy, I would be excited to bring another life into the world. I know that I cannot be guaranteed anything in life and it is God's plan not mine. Yet I am still struggling with my emotions even after many prayers.

So we are going to a specialist on Monday. At 2pm we will meet with a genetic counselor and then at 3pm with the Dr for 1st trimester screen. I feel so anxious about going. I pray that we will be strong no matter the outcome.

I am trying to truly relay on the Lord right now as we journey again with our new baby.

6 comments:

Colored With Memories said...

I don't know if it helps, but I'M excited for you! And praying also...I'm so glad I read this before your appt.

Please keep us posted with how the sono/screen went.

Emily said...

What a beautiful little miracle! I will be praying for your peace, as you fight to remember that He is the one who creates all life and that all the promises we cling true are true for this little one, too. :) So happy for you!

Julie said...

Thank you so much for your prayers! Also, thank you for sharing your story with us.

Kim (marygracesummons.blogspot.com) said...

Debbie,
I am just now reading the news!! I am so happy for you. I am so excited for you. I know how you must feel but just choose trust every day you wake up. He will carry your worries so that you can have rest, just let Him. I am praying for you and new little! Give me an update when you can via e-mail. You are not alone....
love you,
Kim

Brynn P. said...

Congrats! I will keep you in my prayers.
I know where you're coming from with "overwhelming emotions" somewhat. So I Pray that you can be comforted!!

Thanks for being a great example to me--even though i don't know you, but your blogging has been a great help to me!

Kirsten said...

Debbie,

Praying for you and wondering how you are doing. God bless you today. I pray that you feel His big, loving, protective arms covering you and your family. Rest in Him.

Blessings,
Kirsten