Sunday, December 13, 2009

Candle lighting

Today is National Children's Memorial Day. It is a worldwide candle lighting event. Starting in New Zealand, candles will be lit for one hour beginning at 7pm local time creating a 24-hour candle light observance around the globe. This simple act is to help those who have experienced the death of a child, grandchild, sibling, or a fried remember these children during a season when the death is the most difficult to bear. Hope you all will join me in remembering Walker and all his friends at 7pm your time.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

October 15th

Remembering Walker on this day.
How I miss you so much!

Spent the weekend at Camp Sol.
Enjoyed remebering your life with your sisters and brothers.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Amazing Story of Love

What an amazing video! I am so glad that they were willing to share what so many of us feel inside during that short time.

When I was watching their family during those intimate times, I wish that I could take my memories and put them in a video- the 2 days at the hospital, the 12 days at home, the family surrounding us always, the love and laughter shared with Walker, the feedings, the sleepless nights, the countless visitors, the amazing nurses, the fantastic hospice- Kathy, the child life specialist- Cinda, the oxygen, the funeral, the last moments, the good-byes, the pain in his face as his heart gave out.
I do have many pictures and a video that I am so very thankful for family and NILMDTS photograhper. I still wish I had more to hold and share. I would love to see the memories others have of that amazing time.

How I wish I had thought clearly to video tape much more. I don't regret anything do during that time yet sometimes I would like a do-over just to capture more pictures and videos. So I am grateful that others share what they have recorded; it helps me remember so much of Walker's life. Thank you Mary and Deidrea Laux for sharing.

Monday, August 3, 2009

My Daily Reminders for the new school year

Slow To Anger

Proverbs 16:32
"He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city."

Be Happy People

Pslams 144:15
"Happy is that people, that is in such a case; yea, happy is that people, whose God is the Lord."

I need this constant reminder not just for the new school year that is about to start yet for my family. I am excited to begin each day with prayer to remember these scriptures.

What a journey these last 4 months! 3 funerals and 1 remembrance birthday. I am definitely looking for an emotional rest.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Happy Birthday 2 years


Happy Birthday. We miss you and love you so much. Spent a wonderful day thinking and talking about you and your time with us on Earth. Looking forward to seeing you again one day.


Mommy, Daddy, Grace, Ava, Charlie, and Jackson

Tuesday, June 30, 2009


I have come here many times wanting to write. Then I just read other blogs and was touched and comforted by their words.

As the days get closer to that 2 year mark, I miss Walker more this year than last year.

Maybe I just recognize the feelings and not numb anymore?
I don't know the answers just relying on FAITH to guide me through the next couple of weeks.
So tonight I need to write not just read.

Yesterday, I went to the funeral for a dear family friend. He leaves behind his eternal companion, Marjean, and his 18 yr old daughter. I realized how God works and knows each of our strengths and weaknesses. Gary had been battling cancer for 18mos. He had just watched his only beautiful daughter walk across the stage at her graduation. He celebrated his 18th Father's Day - the day they became a family. Hospice had just been set up. The next morning my mother was inspired to call and check on them and Gary had slipped into a coma. My mother rushed to her dear friend and daughter. Through Heavenly Father's blessings, the family was comforted. He was no longer in a body of pain. But I ache for a little girl that won't have her dad for monumental times in her life and for a wife that will have a complete empty nest after her daughter leaves for college and an empty bed.

Thankful for faithful people who listen to the spirit.

What a remarkable service it was; it reminded me of the life we should be living and Gary was living it. He was a wonderful example and he will be missed.

Every year for 4th of July since before Grace was born, our families have gone to the Plano 4th of July Parade together. This year he will be in spirit and looking down at us holding Walker's hand.

FAITH will get us through this life and into the next. My heart aches for Walker just my spirit knows he is waiting for us. I look forward to celebrating his birth on Thursday.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Jackson Caerden Savage

Here is our newest family member. I just have a few pictures to include since most of the pictures from the hospital are from my mom's and sister's camera. I need to get them from them to add.

What a blessing to have Jack with us. We are grateful that he is healthy and beautiful. Our Heavenly Father has given us another beautiful spirit.

I am amazed to see the love that we have for him already. The girls and Charlie are always wanting to hold and kiss him. I had a hard time keeping them away from Jack this week while they were sick. It has been a long week. Glad that they are almost all healthy again.

I am blown away when I realize that I have 5 children. What a daunting task to raise Christian children in our society now. We definetly will need to rely on the Lord to guide us as we raise these beautiful children.

Even with this new beautiful baby, my heart is reminded that Walker is not with us. I have even called Jack "Walker". I know that they are 2 completely different spirits. I still miss Walker very much and maybe more since Jack was born. I know that my children miss Walker also. Grace stated that she is worried that we will forget about Walker now that we have Jack(another baby). Charlie was worried that if Jack had to go to the hospital for jaundice, the hospital would keep him forever.

I pray that I will be the mother that I need to be for all of my children.
I pray that I will always enjoy my children and they will know how much I love each of them.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Superbaby Savage is Here

Our new bundle of joy arrived on Sunday. Of course, he was scheduled to arrive today. It was a surprise to wake up yesterday and realize that we needed to get to the hospital fast. My water broke around 6:15ish and he arrived at 7:50 at the hospital including the 30 min-ish drive. It was amazingly fast and uncomplicated.

I am so thankful for all the prayers. I also give thanks for a healthy baby boy. It is amazing the love we feel for him since part of us never imagined go this road after Walker.

He is absolutely perfect. I will post pictures soon. He still does not have a name - almost decided.

Superbaby Savage
8 lbs 6oz
February 1, 2009

Friday, January 23, 2009

Count Down Has Begun

Our newest arrival will be here soon. Peace has finally set in for me. I was reminded last night how I am anticipating his arrival. I am comforted to know that I have never been alone on this journey. I am looking forward to holding our new family member. It has taking me a while to get to this point. I think I was afraid of hurting if things did not turn out the way that I want. I know that it is not my will but His will that things happen.

We still are unsure about a name but I am comforted to know that all work out. Soon. Very soon. Due date was Feburary 14th - Valentine's Day. Now we are counting down to Feburary 2nd. My first 2 deliveries were very fast after water broke - called precipitous labor. We lived only about 15 minutes from the hospital. Then we moved about 30-45 minutes away from the hospital that my OB works with. So with #3 and #4 deliveries, we schedule inductions with just breaking water at the hospital. Then contractions begin and go from a 4 to 8 in less than 1 hour.

I have been very nervous about this delivery because I want to make it to the hospital. I also don't want my water to break while teaching 5th graders (a fear since pregnant with Grace). OB said last week that he could be here before the 2nd; we will have to wait and see(not easy for a control freak).

So I pray that I will have comfort and be paient. I also pray that all goes well with the delivery and we will be inspired with a name.

Maybe next post will be welcoming a new little one into the Savage Family.