It has been a long time since I have written. Not that I don't have alot to write about yet I needed to spend time away. I still checked in on other blogs. I just needed to figure out what my blog was for now. I started my blog to try to connect with other women who had lost a child and to help me with the grieving process. I was looking for friends who had similar experiences- I was hurting and needed comfort.
My husband and I should have been comforting each other yet we were just pushing away. I realized that I needed to look and focus on my family. Things were bad at home and needed to get fixed or changed. It has been almost 3 yrs and it is time to finally feel the pain. I held most of my pain in and just now understanding and accepting it.
Starting to heal healthier and happier. Learning to forgive better and completely and enjoy all of my family again.
I have the friends at home that I was looking for and found some new ones to help me with this forever process.
I thank my Heavenly Father for being patient and softening my heart.